2005, I am terribly missing you

I woke up this morning with a strong and unexpected desire. Yes ! UNEXPECTED.

I want my 2005 back. Please. :(

Its almost 5 years has passed and it seems like I never ever really get over you dearly dear. You were the one right up till now. I miss you like no one else can do.

Sumpah rindu ko awok. Rindu tuisyen, rindu skoloh, rindu lagu IMBY, rindu alert msg kat hp dulu. Its all because it reminds me of you.

Now you are so faaarrrr away from me. VERY FAR ! But, you are still near to my heart. All i want to say is I MISS YOU ! I MISS YOU ! I MISS YOU !

can loneliness kill ?

S U N Y I

sesuai ke ayat tu dengan aku ? nampak macam TAK je kan ? Hmm. Haha.

Kadang2 aku nak je mengaku dekat semua orang yang aku memang sunyi, aku memang takde sape.

Tapi kalau aku ingat mak ayah aku, aku sedar aku taklah kesunyian. aku ada mereka. :)

ALLAH pun ada dengan aku. Setia selamanya.

Alhamdulillah. :)

Hacummm ! Adehh.

Haa. sesuai dengan title tu, haha. Nampak tak berapa lama dah tak blogging ! Gila lama ok. haha. Bukan apa, just sangat2 malas. Lagipun takde followers pun. HAHA ! Ni yang start balik ni sebab Facebook is totally boring dah sekarang. Auwhhh. I bosan gila now. -_-"

Well, finals is just around the corner. Satu apa pun tak baca lagi. Bagus tak ? Good job, girl ! HAHA!

So, I nak start buat revision insyaAllah esok. hehe. kena la berjauhan dari lappy and broadband buat sementara. Ku harus berjuang demi finals. Pheww !

Ok la dear readers yang sememangnya tak wujud pun, hahahahaha ! I shall stop now. Next post, soon babes soon ! haha. Muah. LOVE ! LOVE !

lembu-lembu sekalian

Salam. Today is Hari Raya Qurban. cehh. hehe. well, like always, me and my family are gathering at our nenek's house. After all, this raya is not as merrier as before because some of my cousins are not here. Miss them. ;(

Oh oh. Btw, I didn't go to the place where they slaughtered the cows and watch they do that because I am so sleepy and ended up with sleeping till afternoon. haha.

There are lots of food that have been prepared and cooked by aunts, mummy and grandma. And they are Nasi ala2 Kak Wok, Nasi Ayam, Pudding, Chocolate and Blueberry cakes, and also Sup tulang and daging goreng. YUMMY! But, I can't eat it all up because of my condition now. FYI, strangely, now I'm having appetite loss due to what which is I am not really sure. Even I do feel so hungry, but its so hard for me to eat like I did before. Haihh! Risau jugak. Hopefully, it will be back in normal mode soon. Heh! :p

Well, enough about Raya. Need to rest for a while and, looking forward to the next post. :))

Oh, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha ppl. ;)

Decision making!

Yes you! I'm letting you go. I've realized that you are not belong to us or me anymore. So, do whatever you want, i'm ok with it. Spread your wings and just fly happily. We will always support you no matter what. And I do hope that you made the right choice in your life if only A can make you happy. And please don't forget about us! I Love You! ;)

And this one goes especially for you dear. I don't know if what I'm doing now is something really ridiculous or might be so stupid. But, honestly what I do feel about you is something so weird and special. I really miss our good old days together. Maybe I have been hypnotized by your beautiful words these days. Never thought that I could fall for you AGAIN. But, I am not so sure with it. It might be I just caught up with the past. But then, I really want you to know that what is keep running in and out of my mind lately and until right now is only about YOU!

starlight tears

ok, currently, i sgt2 sedih. :'(

i have to say goodbye to all my setan's besties. Haha.

hmm. InsyaAllah, kalau xde yg repeat nanti, this coming December, I'll pursue my degree in Gombak. Rasa mcm excited jahh nak masuk sana, but at the same time I rasa mcm I'm not that ready yet. I xnak tinggal Nilai ni. walaupun org kutuk UIA Nilai ni mcm rumah kongsi la, ceruk la, tp, kat sini la segala2nya bagi saya. Sometimes, I do feel that here is the place where I belong. Thanks to my wonderful friends for made my world, sayanggsss.!

Jombis, Maiyi sayang jomb sampai bila2. Igt tu. Rasa mcm x dpt terima je lg yg kita dah x dpt duk skali utk next sem. Rasa mcm ada batu kat dlm dada ni bila igt jomb. Jomb la racun, jomb jugak la penawar hati ni. Thanks syg for loving me all this time being. I do love you with all my heart and soul. Sumpahhh! Accepting the fact that I have to be apart from you makes me really sad and JK. Please don't forget me as I will always remember of you.

Ok lahhhhhh. My tears just started falling down and I just can't stop it right now. This post has to be ended here. Full stop.

Thinking of You

I don't know why I always think about him lately.
So weird act. Huhh.
I wonder if he's okay or not, what is he doing right now, and bla bla bla.
I am sure that he is not missing me at all just like I do. Haha!
Anyways, what to do when my heart says so. I just being honest with myself.



Yes, currently, I miss him so hell much!!

Thinking of You

I don't know why lately I have been thinking anout him

Tak sedar

Waaa. This coming Sunday dah nak Raya dah. Saya x rasa pun nak raya n x sedar pun yg Ramadhan dah nak habis.

Hmm. x tau la knp bila dah besar ni rasa mcm x excited nak raya mcm kecik dulu. Kalau dulu, lagi seminggu nak raya, hari2 try baju raya, kasut raya. Sekarang ni, kalau xde baju raya pun x kesah mana pon. Tp, yg plg best, dpt makaaannn! Itu yg x berubah! Haha!

Anyways, baju Raya dah siap dibeli. Kasut pun dah. So, habiskan puasa, tunggu Family semua balik, dgr announcement si tua kat tv tu bila tarikh Raya and Jum, kita Raya. Haha! ;)

But, on the 3rd day of Raya, I have to go back again in Nilai for my final examinations. *sigh*

Study satu apa pun x start lagi. Mcm mana nak pass ni? haihh. Buku kemain lg banyak bawak balik, tp x terusik pun. haha. Mati la. Saya memang pemalas seperti selalu. Ada masalah? Memang ada, saya la masalahnya. Haha!

Harapan: Dpt duit raya byk2, boleh buat mkn McD dgn Jomb, Kating, Nyah, Mom, Abang, Cik Lembut, Pikah Yee(ini semua nama ahli2 mcDelivery yg paling kerap order. Kami memang kaya. Hahaha)bila stay up nak exam nanti. LOL!

apa sudah jadi kpd saya??

ohh. what happened to me??

sekarang ni saya selalu je tdo lepas bukak puasa n bangun around 2 a.m. and sambung tdo balik around 7.a.m.

sgt tidak normal waktu tdo saya. huhh!

my mom pun dah bising. dia kata nak keluar mkn mlm2 pon x boleh sebab I asek tdo jek. Mcm baru balik overseas pulak. Susah nak adapt time tdo. Haha! See how pathetic I am. Duhh!

Saya rasa ini semua terjadi mungkin sebab time kat Nilai, I, together with my friends used to stay up 'til morning and sleep after Subuh especially bulan puasa ni. Haha! X pernah lagi kot ktorang tdo kalau tak lepas Subuh. Menggila x menggila kami. Huhh. Ktorang ni suka sgt bergosip, makan n buat bising. Kadang2, main dgn kakti kesayangan. Haha! Sebab tu la xtdo.

And now when I got back home, benda tu still x leh nak ubah. Xleh tdo mlm2! Kalau kat dorm boleh la borak2, main2 ngan jombis tersayang. Tp, kat rumah sape la yg nak layan kita ni kan. haha. lgpun org sume letih tgh mlm, nak rest sbb dorg xtdo lepas bukak puasa mcm I. Haha!